Change

People change. I started to learn about this reality in my late teenage years (not realising that I am almost 21 years old this year lol). It wasn't easy for me to accept this fact. I keep asking myself why this and that person has changed? Why doesn't this person do what they usually do? Why some people choose not to be as close to me as they were before? Ended up, I started being someone else, someone who I THINK people will like. Hm those days.....

Growing up, I started to realize, in certain cases, we do need to change ourselves. But I prefer using "improving ourselves" or "adapting ourselves". Not just to please others, but to also please ourselves. Do you think you will be happy to go somewhere being your-so-called-self when people around you are not pleased with your presence? Contohnya macam pakai baju renang pergi majlis formal oh too much hyperbolic here. So, even if you wear a swimming suit on your daily basis pun, you still need to change bila nak pergi majlis formal. Does this make sense? hahaha

Anyway, to grow up, to be better, to improve ourselves, we do need to change.

I mean, as I grow up, I stopped waking up all night, just to think why certain people has changed. They may change if they are pleased to do so, I have no right to control everyone and make them the same exact person as they were. Some changes will even make our friendship different, and I need to accept that. I will try to appreciate everyone I have in my life (even though I know I will never be able to please all people), but if they still need to get out of my circle, they may leave. I have no power to control others, I might not be as good to be in their lives, or God might take them away from my life for some better reasons.

People may change, I do change too. I sometimes change upon my gain. I sometimes change upon my loss.  I act differently depends on who I am around. I change for various reasons. and I believe no one have the right to blame me for my change, and I do not have the right to blame anyone for their changes.

The journey, before the result.

Dunia dan benda benda kerisauan,

There are lots lots lotsssa things you gotta worry about. Nak fikir pasal dunia ni sampai bila tak habis. Same goes to me, I sometimes forgot to enjoy the journey, I think about everything very critically, Mula buat benda tu terus fikir nak dapat the best out of it, and automatically we'll be worried. Macammana kalau kita  tak dapat macam apa yang kita harapkan? Macammana masa depan kita. At the end of the day, all you can do is do your best, doa tawakkal and yakin nanti Allah bagi yang terbaik kat kita. Either it is what we were hopin for or vice versa.

Usaha je. Ni tengah tulis apa ni next week dah final haha okbye. 

First trip : Shenandoah, Virginia.

This was our very first roadtrip together and I tell ya it was one of the most greatest things I've ever done in my life. To be together, rely and believe people you only call as friends and get to grow closer just like a family when you do not even tied by any blood connection. We went hiking in Shenandoah, Virginia and honestly it was tiring like hell but still, to get to see friends waiting and relying on each other will always be one of the sweetest things ever to see in my life. We even sat in the middle of the track tho lel haha.

We planned for a two-day-trip and to just go back on the day after. At that night, we had KFC for our dinner in Shenandoah (I should remember how much I am missing my KFC while living here) you can count how many KFCs that provide halal chicken blergh. While eating, one of us voiced out "weh jom pergi Pennsylvania" we're like "whaaaatttttt tetiba je like a big NO sorryy" then all of sudden everyone was like "hm but it sounds like a good idea. bila lagi ken" then we called the cars' owner since we rented the car just for two or three days and they were like (I forgot what did they respond but things were not easy). But at last, we finally made it to Penssylvania, visiting our friends there. How excited we were oh man! Bestnya tidur dalam kereta ops. Btw sebelum ke Pennsyl tu we sent our friends balik rumah dulu since they have another plan lepastu kitorang patah balik pergi Penssylvania melalui Shenandoah (balik).

So basically from Shenandoah to Alexandria (rumah kami) is a 2-hour trip then Alexandria to Penssylvania is a 4-hour-trip. Kerja gila kan? I never think that it would be possible without these nuts hahahah. Btw Alhamdulillah.

Satu kekurangan pergi roadtrip ni adalah bila kau balik je roadtrip, kau tak boleh nak move on and mentally and physically down for classes mungkin sebab it was my first time jugak kot. Kau akan terbang di awang-awangan in the first week of school lol. I was down like crazy at that time haha lepastu cam serik sikit nak roadtrip masa cuti tengah semester :p
 

6 November 2016

Have been writing a post about my first trip ever in the US since a few weeks ago but I have no time to edit the entry and publish. It's quite a long post act. Tapi nanti lah.

Btw, have you ever (to anyone who crossed by this blog secara sengaja ataupun tak, jawab je dalam hati) :p have this kinda feeling? Rasa macam kosong sangat macam homesick and like sedih pun ada sikit tapi taktahu kenapa hahahahah because I'm having that rite now. Haih idk lah.

So currently, I'm in my third semester and insyaallah another semester left before transferring to the uni. I'm hoping that everything will be well. So, for my third semester, ada few weeks left and these last few weeks will absolutely be the most hectic'est' of the hectic weeks hahaha. Finals and everything you know that aite. But relax, kitkat kan ade :D

So sebagai tips, for this kind of situation, nothing else We can do except to pray to Allah semoga semuanya dipermudahkan. Benda susah mana pun, kita sibuk mana pun, dengan izin Dia, kita akan rasa tenang je :')

xxx